The Life of Cata

6 months ago I was in limbo. 6 months ago we had just lost our home. It's amazing how much has happened in the last 6 months. I just read the post that I wrote on the 30th March. When I read it now I remember exactly how I felt at the time. I just googled "fire Grafton Chamber" and these sites came up. The last one is a flikr account of some architect type person who is upset that he/she doesn't know about the future of the building. All that I feel when I see those pictures it sadness. I still have those pictures I took the night that we were stood outside. I don't think I'll show them yet. Give me another 6 months maybe... So reflecting on this past half year I think it has shaped me more than I think on a day to day basis. I'm still quite upset that I didn't get to go to (or get any info about) Freddie's funeral. I think I took a lot of risks and chances this summer that I wouldn't have normally. Maybe without me being concious about it, I'm living more for the day. I'd say that's what changed most about how I approach things. I used to plan everything so much. I don't any more. I don't want to plan them... and it's not even anything that I can help... or do anything about. It's just how I see life now. Maybe it's good... I don't know yet. Again, give me another 6 months...